watch dt perform!

everyone is getting their apartment

with everyone ard me and in my life seems to be getting an apartment, i tink dear got infected with the apartment purchase fever too. seems like he is getting right interested in the hot property purchase. guess after all, we are in high possibility to get an apartment somewhere in the east. at least for the time being, we are both working in the east but with the limited amount of flats nowadays, its really hard to choose where u wanna stay. dear was commenting on that 1st time buyers might get the hse quick but i had to remind him that ppl need time to build the flats watttttttttttttttt....
but since he not not OFFICIALLY propose, all these talks do not count at all. hur hur hur.. beside asking me the question like 1000 times already, its like when do u deem it as a proposal? or just the the millions out there, there are none at all? lol.. ok its me getting bitchy in here. most likely we are planning the arrangment like next year aft cny. when things got settled. check the word out its PLAN. so things might go wrong in a plan or things might no happen in this plan at all. all depends on fate when it happen i guess.

anyway, off topic, my ankle still hurts like HELLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!

Its been so long

Yup, its been so long since my last update. Guess the pain of updating my blog still exist. When ever I flash my blog, the sight of rainrain’s fate made me wanna click the X button and escape to another world where I can see her.

With the exception of the lost of rainrain, all came back to square one. The start where its just me, dt pa and dt.

Oh ya, dt went for a hair cut by iris, omg, boy he looks handsome now. Iris did a perfect job of grooming him and dt pa love the cut to max. he swear to go to iris until the day she retire. Ho ho ho.

Dt had so much fun playing with cotton that got dt pa so shock! Dt nv like friends and yet he love love cotton to bits! So tempted to grab her home!

This is the 1st xmas week in my life where all are silent and quiet. Still grieving I guess. Everything is so quiet with no mood for xmas at all. But nonetheless, its really what we enjoy. Just the 3 of us nuaing together. A night of clubs and fun in xchange for the company that dt give us is priceless.

Oh ya, went to the MS outing ( ya, MS outing again ) on sun. before that we had the appointment to meet up with tabby. A ST we plan to adopt. She got rainrain’s color! Love at 1st sight they say. And she fear dt. Lol. 1st time some dogs actually fear him! But the 2 had fun sniffing and dt is not jealous at all for any of the cuddling I give to tabby. Hope we are chosen!
Head to k9 campus for the USDB pick up and they forgot about enrica’s order. Yet they went to pick up the food so guess the service is not that bad after all.
Saw enrica, apartment to be and boy it looks huge!! The design she told me seems so her!! Looking forward to gatecrash her hse warming!
The journey to bliss was a torture. No, it IS a torture. Pouring so big that we cant see the road ahead of us. Arriving there late, but armed with strollers, we had fun with the usual kakis and DT got a fair bits of presents. He actually enjoy the outing cos he gets to ogle at snowy and her mama. Hot snowy mama! And DT actually made so effort to stare and get active!

Ok, all the mess now with my time entries all wrong. But you know, that’s all… lolz

why do we have to lose you so fast...

The morning turn out well and ok with rainrain jumping up and down to greet me with her wagging wiper. I knew that it will take forever to feed her hence decide to just mesh her food up and wait for dear to do the dirty job.

Went to work as usual but full of worries for her. The rain was heavy today and rainrain was on my mind the whole time.

Dear got home early and we went for a short dinner downstairs. Came up and see rainrain panting really bad. Called tvj and we decide against better or worse, we shall bring her in to be hospitalized there. At least grace heng will be there to look after her.

The journey to the vet got our sprits up as rainrain was popping her head up high and being kaypoh at a lot of traffic junctions. Held my hand on her for the fear of her breathing and thankfully, we made it through to the vet.

Yvonne was there to greet us and when I put rainrain on the weighing machine, she collapsed. Got us all freak out and Yvonne went in to put rainrain on o2 mask. We fear for the worse but yet we told ourselves that rainrain can pull through the night.

Seeing her with the o2 mask and the iv drip made our hearts sink. Sink so deep into the ocean that we could never find. Holding the o2 mask on her, she whine, cry and fight the mask away. Not a whiner as I had always praise her for, 1^st time she whine. Whine so bad that my heart ache and it hurt so bad when I see her in pain. I could tell that she had problem breathing. Grace heng told us to prepare for the worst but yet, we want to remain positive for her. Rainrain is a strong strong girl. Still fighting to stand up, to breath and to take in every single breath through the mask. She did not give up at all. For the many times that she want to push the mask away, we pacify her and she will follow our instructions to have the mask back on her. She is panting, she is in pain yet she fight all the way out for all the hopes that we had promise her. I keep telling her , rainrain u had to be strong, we had xmas parties to attend, we had new year parties , we have cny parties and its kor kor ‘s 2^nd yr birthday bash in jan and the whole wish for u to attend. She listen, she wink and she put up the fight. Using every bit and ounce of her energy , she fought. She fought through the demon that was pulling her off, she delay her turn to leave us and she, with her strong will and guts , held on to every single words that we had said to her. We promise her sentosa, to be with us till she turn 15 and to celebrate her 1^st birthday with us. Mummy will hold you a big birthday bash I told her. She wink, she listen and understand every word said by me.

4 straight hours, she use all her might to pull through, using every bit of her to breath, and just tiny bit of coaxing, she went back to the mask and try to breath all over again. Never giving up. My 1^st impression of her as I put in SPC was a sassy and independent girl and she live up to it.

Every moment, every minute is a grinch / a fight and a war between time and us. We told her to win this battle for us. She promises us to win. She try to keep her word, fighting the frontline till the every end. She did not give up. Never did she try to just let go. She know that we are waiting for her to bring her home.

At midnight, all was too hard on her. The dark side won. Fuck it! What had she done to lose this battle! We are with her.. how can she just give up on us! She promise!!!!!!!!

No she did not give up without a fight, with the last ounce of breath, she tried her every best. She did us no wrong and she did herself no wrong. She is a winner. In our heart and in the battle she fought. She did not just give up like that, she fought for 4 bloody hours. For a small body weighing 1.75kg at the age of 4mths, what she did is amazing. More amazing than the daily bitching fight I had in the office daily. More amazing that every single thing that happen. More brave that every deed that any warrior had done. She fought hard and she did not give up. She had to let go not because she give up but she had to. They are too strong for her small small body.

You know when people die, they get the cover their eyes and go to the other world? Rainrain did not. As much as grace heng tried, rainrain kept her eyes open. I think she want to show me the fire in her eyes and to tell me that “ mummy, I am watching out for u and daddy in the rainbow bridge” “ I will open my eyes real wide and make sure kor kor is not naughty and I shall open my eyes real wide to look out for the 3 of you to make sure no harm come to you”

I kissed her. Many times. The places that I always kiss her. Her forehead, her cheeks and her paws. Her paws are cold. So cold like they took her to hell and bring her back just to fucking hell show that they got the right to do so. They do not have the right to bring my rainrain to hell and show off to me! No! they got no right at all. She is mine and always mine. No one can take her away. Not to anyplace in the world. She is my warrior and mine alone.

For the 2 wks she is here. Was it a wk?? a day ? or 2? I cant remember. For the short time she is here, she brought us many amazing things that no one else can. She allow us to pin hopes that no one else can and she allow us to create dreams that can never never come true.

At every rainy day, its rainrain’s day. A day that mummy will always remember and I know when it rains, it means u have come to visit and let us know that you are here. So rain often ya? Just to let mummy and daddy knows that you are watching over me, daddy and korkor.

I so hate you. For you let me love you so much yet u let me go alone.

new addition!

the kids waiting for food on wed ( 12 dec 07)!

manja rainrain being sayang by daddy
looking blur!
show down on 1st night!

In our family of three, we now have got a cute little girl. RainRain her name that is. We got her at erricson pet farm on Sunday, 9 Dec 07. Seriously, we got no intention of getting a puppy on that day itself. Dear is a ckc fan. Having had a ckc name ash for a period of time, his sis got ash from her ex bf. Well, the usual turn out, boy broke up with girl and girl return the puppy. During ash’s period of stay, it was dear and his mum who went all out for her. Hence for the 2^nd addition to the house, we decide to have either a ckc or a maltese.

Went to farmway on sat ( 8 dec 07) but in the end, we decide t o head to pmdr for DT. No dogs caught our attention although we had been searching through the webbies and shops for 1 that catches our eyes.

On 9 Dec, we went to u pet with enrica n robert having the thought of buying treats and more treats for DT. Enrica asked us if we wanna go to gi’s hse to see tyler but we decide to give it a miss and to go back to bath smelly DT. But dear decide to head to erricson for the 2^nd look at the ckc. We saw a really cute ckc but its boy. We wanted a girl so that DT will feel more at ease. We asked and they brought out RainRain. She is such a pretty pretty girl! Sight for sore eyes! So pretty!!!!!!! We got DT and he sniff her and seeing that DT likes her, we hezd for our new born child.

When we got into the car, all horror broke out! Rainrain tried to smell DT and DT freak out! At the very moment, we were thinking like what the hell have we got ourselves into! So unprepared! But rainrain is such a good girl, falling asleep on daddy’s lap while dt on mine and we drove all the way from pasir ris to cck for her initial check up.

We decide to name her rainrain as everytime we go out with the intention to view ckc, it pour! Heavy down pour! The day we got her, a storm looks like it breaking in! hence the name is being decided. We like that name too! So girlish for the pretty girl.

Lucky for us, we still have got dt’s playpen and many other things that the pretty girl can use. All passed down from kor kor.

As the q at tjv was like damn long, we head back to my house to let my parents have a view of the new addition. Dad and keller thought rainrain was cute. Mum was being as protective over dt as ever. Dt got chased in the whole house by rainrain. And many time, he snap. But after 30 sec, rainrain will forget. She is sooo cute! Every time she got snapped, she will sit at corner. Looking so guilty. Every pee / poo made by her, she give you the most guilty look.

Well, she got fairly active when she got home. Traumatizing dt many many times. Each time she did that, she forgot she got snap and went all the way out again.

Seems like all for fine until she got snap too many times and daddy whack her real hard when she pee and the wrong area for the 2^nd or was it the 3^rd time. The every next day on Thursday, she turn restless and not wanting to eat. She even start coughing kinda bad. Separate dt and her (anyway, dt nv like to stay near her) and got her to tjv on Friday night and we did checks on her on thurday, its got us scared that maybe she is down with kennel cough.

Took us about an hr and half when its our turn for the vet. She got phlegm which means its jus a wet cough because she caught a cold. Flu they named it in human terms. Dr heng gave her some med, ok that’s a lot of med and a can food for us to force feed her.

Dt pa brought her back home and got into a mess feeding her and she was sobbing and crying I heard. Got me worried sick and went back the very next day for her. She look soooo restless! Poor gal. feed her some milk and a/d and she seems to get enough energy to walk around the room. Still coughing now and then. But from the initial coughing at every 10 mins. She would only cough for like every half hr to 45 mins. Seems to be making a turn for the better.

But she is still not eating yet and lucky for us, dt shun her like he saw a ghost. Hence dt is still jumpy and healthy.

Still forcing her to eat and nothing seems to make her want to taste! Omg!!

Another 7 more days to the anitbitotics and pray hard for her speedy recovery !!

speedy recovery!

taken on 1st nite and trust me, i tot dt hate her sooo much!


taken on 12 dec when she is still gobbling down food!

shag shag sat!

went to the office today to clear more shit cos i just cant finish my work! my boss was in a damn mood so the mood in the office was not so pleasant. finally clearing so bit of shit and dt pa came ard to fetch me.. with dt of cos!
having no place to eat, we decide a last min trip to pet movers and bring dt there for a small run. jus to break the curse of always raining when dt go dog run. we were starving but the food of of no interest to us so we decide to stay at the dog run for abit of fun. dt got sticky, he jus follow me wherever i went. i run he run. i sit he sit. he got trama by a lab which came over and got over friendly with him. and the lab actually wanna follow us home! its dt 's 1st pmdr and he got kinda shy. chasing and strolling and grrring at the cats opposite. dt's daddy say he is a mummy's boy. not even leaving me for a min.

we went back a after cleaning him up abit, all 3 of us snoreeeeeeeeeeee so shag!

woke up at 7 to dress up for dinner as its dt pa's mum birthday. so we took the drive to orchard. omg, the traffic was like damn bad! cars and ppl are like everywhere! yucks! i rather skip the crowd. the dinner was great, i nv tot vegetarian can taste so good! yummy! but too filling on my tummy!!
took the long ride back with all 6 of us in the car and when we finally got back, i waited for dt pa to park the car while the rest of the family went up 1st. i heard that dt smelt me but could not see me so he went in a frezy seach for mummy. he go soooo excited when he say me tat he almost wanna jump thru the gates!! carried the boy and he kiss me for the whole 10 mins! lolz

planned to catch a movie but with nothing to watch, we decide to stay at home with dt.

dt pa wanna bring dt to the pmdr for another round of walk tomorrow with enrica n robert.. cos he claim tat dt put on weight!

hmph!

DT 你要妹妹吗?

been in the search for DT's 妹妹 for the last few weeks. trying to adopt and still waiting for replies. so many dogs out for adoption. many are like 7 yrs or older, isnt it sad? u had the dog for so long yet giving him / her up just due to old age....

but not giving up!!

The war again

Yet another news article in the straits times on dogs. Again again and again! Seriously I got really sick about it. I love my dog and face it! I love other peeps’ dogs and we are not creating a din. Why do other people always picking on us? You know school bullies? Where they pick on you without knowing the reason why and to pick on you again and again and again? That’s how I feel now. I felt so being pick on. I understand hw ppl get upset with my dog sitting on the chair but trust me, they are way cleaner than your butt! I can bring a towel for him to sit on anyway. Seriously, my dog’s butt is cleaner than those chairs.
Leashed or not leashed, I understand how some people have fear for them. If its something you fear and you had to had the thing leashed, can I leash irritating kids, crying babies and cats? I hate cats and there they are, climbing all over in HDB. Can you ppl leash your bloody cats before letting it come out at night and make horny noise!!!
I am in such fear of babies and kids that I am having kidsaphobia, can I request for them to be leashed? They scared the hell out of me, make my heart beats too fast because of their presence and because I had hyper tyroid, the fast heartbeat that I am feeling is life threatening. For the danger of losing my life, can kids and babies be leashed?

Oh ya! Theives and robbers and rapists are dangerous too! They attack people, causing emotional scars, can human be leashed too? Since we do not know when will they turn killers, can we leash them and confine them?

Ex-convicts, can they be leashed too? There are people who fear that they might attack again.

Tell you wat Singapore, jus ban dogs. Jus ban all dogs. Oh ya, ban cats, birds, kids and humans!

Fuck!

mad rush over the wkend~

had to come to the office on sat morning for this wk and nxt wk. damn! but guess thats y i managed to finish my work and to clear them in time. i promise i will do it. lolz


rush back home aft 12 noon and took me a long while to get the cab! got me so piss! reached home at 1pm and dt pa got everything pack up for our outing already. initially he had to head down to expo hence no chance of him driving us to pawtobello. hence, serene took a cab and came to pick me up. saw roxy finally! she is jus so pretty!!!! she seriously dont look 10 kg to me. but she is really a chor lor gal. haha


arriving at pawto, i saw lotsa MS and got abit bored waiting for the other gals to come. din know the newbies there. got soooo happy when i see winnie and marie!!! hence the bitching begin!~ dt spent the afternoon looking out for me, chasing me, and following me. he did move ard awhile but stop and run back when he realise that i was out of sight. ohya! fido is soooo pretty tat i attempt to dog nap her alot of time!~


got more bitching when enrica arrive! the kibbles babes!! wahahahaha


while, me, winnie and enrica were out smoking, some idiot middle age couple came and swing the door real open! roxy, bobby and belle ran out! lucky they respone to our callings and came back to us. with real disgusting potato slang, the couple shouted that the dogs should be leashed and they do not want to go into the cafe with unleashed dogs. 10 mins later, they were inside and sitting at the couch , leashing their dogs! idiots! how disgusting can they be!!! sick ppl are everywhere!



in the end,dt pa planned not to go expo and came to pick us up. imagine all us standing outside at MS and cabs actually could be seen doing u-turn when they see us! took us so long and no cabs are willing to pick us up. lucky for us, dt pa came to the rescue.

upon reaching home, dt got sooooo shag that he decide to give dinner a miss and SNORE. we planned to catch heartbreak kid and usually when we go to the door, dt will come walking behind us and sulk. this time round, he just slept.



heartbreak kid was so damn funny tat dt pa spent the whole 2 hrs laughing like mad! the show is great! funny funny funny!!!!



we had not been to marina sq for a long time and i took dt pa to max brenner for chocolate. he lve it there and was praising me for being so smart! chocolate nuts he pride himself! tried to spend some time searching for a teddy bear for dt but the other shops were closed so we had to give it a miss.



the night ended with supper and dt greeting us with his tired eyes and sleepy head. awww so cute!

dt pa decide on the red n white ckcs for our nxt kid. he said he had always like the ckcs esp red n white... so now we are on a look out for her.. ckcs alert!!!

woke up on sun to feed dt and crawl back to sleep.. had the luxury to sleep in late when dt pa went to expo. i should not have wake up late! got a nightmare that DT went missing.. cried in my sleep and woke up with dt kissing me. phew... dt pa had his sunday burnt, so its just me and dt over the wkend. went downstairs with dt and saw other dogs which dt had fun playing with. in the end, had to drag him up to bathe. the whole process took me like 2 hrs plus! with dt pa ard its like half the time or slightly lesser. got prob with my lappy and decide to re-format it. guess wat! i lost all my pics and mps due to a different user name tat i log in with! damn damn damn!!!!!!!!!

nap for awhile before heading off to expo to meet dt pa. omg! even during the last hr of the it show, the place is jam pack! shop around and got a pouch at a steal at 10 bucks and sign up photovideoi. by the time dt pa came out, it like 10 plus already. we drove his colleagues back to bedok and we both head for dinner.

toll our tired boy home and start the search for our 2nd kid again. guess wat? we slept at 1.30am! yawn....

calamari girls!!

went for a dinner catching up with kb n vern babes. was so tired with the spinning headache when i was on my way home from work that i had the initial thoughts to forgo this dinner. but there i was thinking, i had not seen my babes for too long! decided to head dwn to vivo after feeding dt. decide to be abit of a good girl and to take the bus ride to vivo. dt pa had always been saying that i am too spoilt! taking the cab everywhere, and even private bus which i took to and from work send me to my door steps! haha, the power of being a woman.
anyway, the long ride made my ass hurt. 1 hr and 30mins! shld have gotten a cab! i finish like 2 eps of prison break!
upon reaching vivo, i hurried up to marchie to meet the girls. having some dumb events there and i had to cross the ocean to the other lobby to get up to marchie.
asked one of the guys there and here is the conversation :

me : excuse me, hw to i get to marchie?
some idiot guy : oh! u have to go dwn, turn xxx, go to lobby a den to lobby b den to turn up again
me:wat is happening here? y all fence up?
same idiot: some events lor
me:wat events?
the same idiot : duno leh.. some events lor
me, glared at him and remarks : u mean u duno ! zzzzzzzzzzz ( and i give him my irritated look)

upon reaching the other escalator, i had to say the magic word " marchie" before i was let up.

anyway, seeing my babes makes my night!! we went bitching at the q and by the time we bitch, its our turn. the q was long but having my babes by me, hmmm seems that time flies!

i went for a puff when they were still in the q and a guy acutally came talking to me and wanting my number.. duh! did not give him so after some jokes and smile, we parted. he looks kinda cute anyway.

we had to sit near the calamari section and kb decided tat we shall be known as the calamari gals after heading exit cos we smell like that. i add on and say we shall eat calamari so tat we smell like that on the inside and outside!

got lotsa food and vern got free rosti! she is tooo hot to resist and the guy forgot to scan her card! wahahaha

the tart we got taste yucky, but since its for kb's birthday, we sang the song out loud and finish it!

headed for the cashier and for the large amt of food for 3, its like only 40 bucks! cheap cheap cheap! thanks for vern lah.

head outside to see the lights and they are so pretty! we were bitching and taking pics and deciding who shall help us to take pics. in the end, we decide on this cute hottie with the canon slr. he is sooooo cute! nice smile! yummy! he took a couple of shots for us and we decide the better one... hahah 1/3 rule he use!! bt he is cute!!! boyish cute!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

went to pacific cafe and head for the seats... started bitching again. kb got a call from p and she went off to the railings to chat. vern n me creep behind her. trust me, it suxs to have to evesdrop at ppl! we almost choke on our own laughter and kb dunno!!!!

ended the night a midnight.. damn i miss the calamari girls!

*wink*

thats us with the vivo lights! so lame hor? lolz


cam whores!
see the receipt? no rostti!



xmas lights!

no more sex!!

finished the last ep of season 6 of sex and the city. got kinda lost as its like my all time favourite show. guess somethings just have to end. in life, in shows and everything.
the last few eps show carrie's life in pasir. omg! i love paris! you can smoke everywhere and you can bring you dog everywhere! there is a saying " in paris, u cant take the front seat in a cab as the front seat is reserved for the cabby's dog"
imagine dior, gucci and LVs at the cheapest price!! that itself tempt me for paris.
dt pa reached home late, about 8plus. dt spent the night waiting for him.. and dt attempt to murder dt pa by kissing him to death.
he ended the night early, about 10plus. 1st time in human history that he slept so early. dt fell asleep beside him while openly requesting for tummy rub... so i sayang the both of them till they both snored.
i slept soon after that i trust me, i woke up fresh but wanting more sleep!!!

anyway, looking forward to tomorrow where i can see the ladies.. i am sure to drag them up to pet safari to see the yorkies as mention in jo's blog..

there is a MS outing too! omg!! dt pa said i pack my wkend pretty fast! lol

i got check!

ya i got check!!!!~ not being check out but being check by the ciggie guy! smoked my last stick yesterday evening while waiting for dt pa at bedok interchange and decide to get a pack from seng siong. lucky me! a balding uncle actually came to me and check! he put my ciggie into this tiny device and after passing the ciggie test, he told me to quit smoking. damn i was plain inpatient anyway... so u peeps out there smoking oem ciggies... either u do it at home or dont do it at all.... danger danger...

omg.. wkend flew!

went home to mummy n daddy on friday night and boy they miss DT!!! cuddling dt non stop... and i mean non stop.. in the end, dt spent his wkend eating n snoring, eating n snoring and eating. when we got back to dt pa on sat night, dt was so tired, even deciding to miss his fave treats as he ate too much!

caught enchanted on sat night, boy its a great show! had not seen any 2d animes for a long time on the big screen and its just so werid! but the show was nice. the kind where u have couples watching and go "awwwwwwww". fairy tales are not so far away anyway. show ended at 2plus in the morning i was just so tired. usually when we arrive back home, dt will bang the door, scream and yell. guess he was just too shag to do it. greeted us with his sleepy face and he look so cute! lol! too much food! dt pa said.

dt pa did not plan to slp early that night due to the fact that the next wkend will be packed for him. i plan to go home next wkend, but dad and mum will not be in sg, so its gonna be just me and dt for the next wkend.

sun was boring. woke up at 7am, feed my spoilt brat and crawl back to bed. woke up in noon and we head off to a fren's house warming.. yawn... not to be mean but the peeps there are not as warm. they are dt pa's frens, so usually i will yelp non stop with my pals.. so being there is just a movie watching session with a small tour of the house. nice view i say, cos its at level 8 and yet over looking the PIE.

headed home at 4 and off we went to our respective device. dt pa to play his game to his full and me catching satc season 6. dt pa cant stand me watching it anyway. he was always telling me it filled with sex... horny show he claim. wahahaha

at least i cuddle up to dt when watching!

ok.. that hw i rot my wkend away...

home early!!! finally~

managed to clear my AR aging to the latest today. in the end, i got to knock off at 5!! lolz! so happy! imagine me jumping off away and looking forward to going home. called dt pa and plan to meet up at tamp mall to get dt his gerber and tibits. he actually has got no tibits at home already but becos of the long hrs that we are both working, we had to draggggggg till today to get him his food. looking forward for the long weekend this week, not planning to work on sat cos i am just soooo shag! my dad order for me to go home this week, so i guess dt and dt ma will have to leave dt pa alone.
was talking to dear and he told me that his colleagues had start to call him dt pa. they had to call his names many times yet time and again, he did not answer them or hear them! in the end, the moment they call him dt pa, he turn around and ans. so no more dear in blogger, he shall be known as dt pa from now.. lolz

got an sms from kb today! planning a meet up with her and vern! omg! i had not meet these ladies for the longest time! not even having time to msn them as my idiot msn dont work at home. i got no bloody idea why. and at work, i was jus so pack the last few days! finally! a chance to see my 2 jie meis!!!

since i will be be off to the west this week, hope to catch my baby fen.. shall msn her tomolo! lolz.. so many friends.. so little time!

was talking to dt pa about my friends today.. i told him that i actually feel that i got really good pals to begin with. the people that i hang out with, some whom i only known for a really short time, yet when things happen, i know i can count on them and they are always there for me. dt pa say its because i got good ppl links / fate... but seriously, i feel that its because they are really great people. the friends i have are really sincere and no matter how long i had not had the time to catch up with them, they will always be there when i am in need. thankful always, for the great pals and for dt pa and dt. you ppl around me made my life beautiful.

still on the look out for our 2nd child. planning a gal this time. so far we shortlisted a few breeds. namely the yorkie, ST, westie. still looking around till we find the one that can click with dt, he is the king of the house no matter what.

searching.. searching... searching..

sick

sick
mc
the end

puff puff

Been really bz at work lately. Due to the screw up of the previous lady who was in my position, the accounts are really messed up. Hence everyday its me working pass 8pm. Sweet dear had been coming over and sending me home so the journey back home is not that bad after all. My boss had been supportive and seeing how late I work lately, he did not chase me for reports and he did not rush me for the outstanding issues. At least he knows that I am working and he is being appreciative.
Anyway, been smoking too much recently. Guess the long day at desk for paper work made me really stressed up. Smoking a lot more and turning up at places smelling like I just smoked a full pack of ciggie! Grrr I stink!

Good news to share actually. 2 friends of mine are getting married!!!! Itchy enrica is getting married!! Lolz! Unbelievable? I thought so too. But I am really happy for her. Remember the 1st day that I met with them, she gave me the most stinko face I ever seen. I thought she was a total bitch. She is still a bitch but a bitch I love so much! Guess she hate my face the 1st time she saw me too. Anyway, our friendship grew and seriously she is a really good friend. We been through bitching, ups and downs. Love her to bits! Seeing that their relationship is now going to another level makes me really happy for her! Its like seeing how kids grow? Ya.. the same feeling. I am seeing how their love grew. Been through the time when I most feared that they cant make it thru, and now that it turn out so well, I m like so happy for her! So girl, remember.. u must be a happy bride ya?

Puffing away now

Stop it!

For you girls out there who are HIS frens.. stop it! Pls just stop it!! I am really happy now and stop telling me that I will regret not going back to him.

i got an IPOD~~

i got an ipod.. i got an ipod... lolz..

got THE IPOD as a early xmas present!! whoo!! dear knows the guy at the apple centre so we got it at a deal... love it to bits!!

so into it that i spend the whole of last night browing through the podcast that i want~! got the radio fm also. now browsing through, i got no bloody idea why did i get the radio! 80 gb ok! lolz!!!

jus msn keler (wahaha keler keler keler) and he gave me lotsa sites and tips for my ipod!!!

now planning what are the things that i am gonna do with it when i get home!!!

tired.... at skc nov 07

cranky

Came to work on a sat. I just hate working on sat! no choice for me as I need to be here to approve some stuff. All thanks to my boss who had given me more authorisation for various things. Meaning that I need to come to work and to approve them.
Anyway, its not that busy and I woke up late today. Work up at 8am and by the time I was at work, its about 8.45. I took a cab of cos. Came in with breakfast and was rotting my time away while I wait for the ops peeps to prepare the documentations for me to sign. Took the initiative to feed dt in the morning to allow dear to sleep later in bed. I doze off last night at about 1am. Him, still playing his latest purchase. So me sleeping on bed alone, cuddling dt. Feels fat today hence decide to wear a polo tee with my skinny. Bad idea, the polo tee seems to expand in size since the last time I bought it. Nonetheless, I wore it and since I will not be going many places in that, I keep an eye close.
Been really cranky lately. Think its due to my period arriving late. The last month its like 2 weeks late and now its like 1 week late already. Feeling bloated and grouchy and had been trying to find fault with dear. Lucky me, he give in to me everytime after I ask for xoxo. Guess its due to the new work environment or something else, I just seems to be able to find fault with dear in any tiny things that he did. Poor him. He had to endure me screaming, bitching and nasty mood. In any case, he took them well, while he grouch, he still carry on with his lastest love and with me gluing and sulking over my ANTM.
Guess life had been abit hard on him lately. Anyway, he got so swum by his new toy and work that he got over my crankiness real fast. Eric was always there to hear me nag nag nag and bitch bitch bitch. At least I got someone to talk to!
Just had a chat with yvonne and she was saying how come so many of us are missing class. Well, studio shots are diffcult and it kinda got me bored about it. I mean I like outdoor shots but studios are soooo diffcult! Kenneth was not very helpful about the classes and the time duration are like so short. How much can you learn in 3 hrs? also, nancy is kinda giving up on the class as well. So that leave yvonne. But she is travelling next to bkk for training so my guess is that she will fade off class too.

Now counting down to my dear fetching me……

Spacing out

Been in that feeling again. When 2 people just started together, many get the feelings of having the powerful urge to stay together. Together for a long long time and to spend every minute of their time enjoying themselves and hanging out as one. Friends tried really hard to talk me out of it. Most tell me its too fast too soon. Some told me things like in one fine day, I will feel the need of lacking of personal space. There I told them, I got no secrets to hide and nothing that I cant tell. So why will I feel in one day, the lack of personal space? Most told me that it will happen. I want to prove them wrong and I told them that it will not happen.

Recently, I do feel the invasion of personal space or the lack of it. Nothing with the invasion of privacy, like I say, I got nothing to hide. But just that feeling of not being able to do things as I prefer alone, but to work many things out as a team. Its not easy. I envy those couples that could do this for years without the feelings of the lack of space.

In the cosmo city that we live in, where people live so near to each other. The slight peek of the windows sometime even enable you to view the life of theirs so clearly, so why is there is need for personal space?

For the last few period, I would get to do things alone. To feel arty, to feel bitchy, to feel the mood that sets me in during this night and day. Gemini I am, logical and emotional all roll in one. One minute I can set my sights far and wish to work towards to future, the every next moment, I will cast my crystal ball and wish to see the future.

So used to the feeling of having moods that set me, suddenly, the collabration with someone else of the totally different planet crashed mine. With the sights sets at different speed, the mood that swings in totally different direction, sometime it’s a hit, sometime, a miss.

With the ability to fuction as a whole has got the plus point but with inability to function as one, serve me to a complete lost. One side of me enjoy the ability to have a partner who share with me, the other side of me felt lost without the ability to function as 1 person.

With all the great things that had been happening to me, why does this small minor point made me feel so left out? Why does this small little point seems so strong and so to bothered me?

Behind the great relationship, is there other things that have to hold the relationship together? After staying together, I got insecurities about some stuff about him. Was it me who think that it is bothersome or does it justify the clouds that had been hovering me?

Had a quick to fly by weekend

and here I am, doing the updating....

Friday was gorging time. Went to cartel for dinner and I think PMS came to me. Had to urge to scream and bitch, so my dear had to be the victim. Nice enough of him to withstand my bitching. When we were are cartel, the lady wrote down a list of food UNAVAILBALE. Hence I pick the other food in the menu that were deemed to be available, however, they came to me later and claim that the food I that I ordered from the AVAILABLE list is UNAVAILABLE. That turned me bitchy, hence I asked the waitress : “why in the 1st place never write?!” she stared. Omg, she stared?! Stare at what?! Thinking that I can read her mind or will the answers pop out from nowehere?! Idiot people!! Idiots are made of people of the country that I despised! Anyway, the dinner made us damn full and we had to struggle our way back.
Went to yu ren shen at tampines mall and we decide to get some gifts for my parents when we are catching them for dinner on sat. bought abit of things and I wanna pay for them with my HSBC as I am accumulating the points. Digging my purse, my flip through my cards and cant find the HSBC. The bitchy sales auntie had the cheek to say “ wah! U got amex, master, visa.. why don’t use?” that irked me A LOT. So I told the auntie off saying that I got the money to pay and I just prefer the other card and requested for the auntie to shut up. The bitch in me surged once more!

Sat got me excited and I sleep through the night. Dear got woken up by DT for like 2 times and as usual, he woke up to open the door for him and being spoilt brat, he did not want to pee.. jus wanna bark and to be manja. Guess only my dear can tolerate him. I slept through noon and by the time I woke up and to switch my phone off from flight mode, I got like 5 miss calls from my boss. Anyway, since I am not suppose to be working, I don’t feel like returning his calls.
DT chewed a mag off the coffee table, because he had poo at the rag 2 days back.. I used the magazine to beat him and this morning, he shocked me by digging out that magazine and chewing it to bits! It happened like 2 days back and he could still remembe which magazine I had beaten him with! Dear said not to beat him so guess I got no choice but to endure MR SPOILT brat and his attitude. Dear was so proud of DT for remembering which magazine had I used to beat him. Damn!
Rush out of the house to meet my family in the evening and I guess dear got nervous. He was like freaking out. The meet up was successful and DT was there to act as a distraction from him. Wahaha lucky him!
We had to rush to pawtobello later in the night and DT snore all the way there.
Surprise surprise, when we were there, DT got alert and start to sniff and kaypoh. Belle got mud loaf and DT had to stare, stand and want to get a bite! Lucky for him, bobby din want the mud loaf and DT gets to eat all he want. Enrica looks damn hot in her outfit and robert look sleepy… wahhaahah PJ what! Miss Jo!! If only she and jeff could come!
The night was damn fun!! Met up with irene too.. roski is as cute as always… I always tend to call out to “ Roski roski roski roski!~” and he will excitedly wag is cute tail and go wag wag wag… lolz… DT had fun sniffing and being cuddled by lotsa women.. he pee / poo at right places. Saw facai and damn he is a sight for sore eyes! So cute! Matlese cross westie.. but cute nonetheless. Still so small that I feared to hold him. So light! Remind me of those days where DT was like 6 mths old. Also that small!
There was a westie pup who keep chasing the boys in the café. She started to chase DT and irritate him a lot. DT bark, princess barked back. DT whine, princess whine back. In the end, princess saw that DT got no interested in her and back off to a new target – facai. Poor facai, he had to keep running away from princess. Wahaha turbo and 5th gear! In fast forward motion the 2 of them ran! Wahah so cute!! Facai’s owners were like so scared and had to keep their eyes on the poor trama boy.. running with tail down, no a good sign of the boy’s 1st outing.
Anyway, princess’s owner is as itchy as her. With princess chasing after boys, her owner was there showing her off her black panty. With dress that is as short as my baby doll top ( I wore shorts) she got nothing under. And she just keep bending down to show everyone her black panty. Sight for puke I would say. Anyway she is not pretty. Enrica is like so much hotter!!
Ended the night with a smelly DT in the car and he was still excited when we were driving back home. Good gathering for him.. seems like he buck up a lot since the last time and he started to mix around more.

Ok.. more to my wkend but that’s all I can remember so far..

facai with mummy , me & DT , enrica with bobby, robert with belle, irene with roski!!!

DT scared of the dark

For the past few nights since I came home from my parents’ seems like DT is scared of dark. Since Sunday, everytime we off the light, DT either grr or bark or whine… often choosing to hide in a corner of the room under the study table or to bark at us for our attention.

Since the beginning, every time DT bark, we will open the door to let him out.. either to pee or to tramatise the neighbours. Recently, we had chosen to ignore his barking and seems like can sleep through the night with no problem. Just that he seems to have problem with in the dark. Wonder why will dogs be afraid of the dark? Hmm

Anyway, we choose to let the dim light in the room on for last night. Grr-ing stop after 30 second. Guess we will have to pop by the supermarket to get the night light and to see how things go. I remember DT hating yellow lights… will try to get some white lights and see if I can calm him down more.

So jaded by his barking for the past few days.. lets just hope it will end soon. In need of my sleep.

gai gai lo!

Met dear at bugis today. saw the sales guy that i saw the last time. 1st question asked by him "huh? go shopping again ar?" zzzzzzzz do i look like a shopping queen!? Omg! damn sianz!!! how on earth did i generaete such an impression!!!!

grrrr anyway, my intention was to go shopping...
went to bugis village and seems that i did not get much clothes as anticipated. in the end, got a white shorts (haha i can still fit into a size S) and 2 tops ONLY. lolz.... my high heels made my ankles hurt from the high heels that i was wearing but damn! i had to get my clothes! in need to get new outfits anyway... lolz dear dear was nice and allow me to try ALL the clothes that i can lay my hands on.. but did not seems to find clothes that fits me.. either too big or too too big.. lolz..

New outfits for the weekend!!!!


DT sniffing my green halter and white shorts

small white spags that i loveeeeeeeeeee

desert! lolz... yummy!

anyway, now back home and watching teebeeeee. dear did not snatch teeeebeeee from me so i get to watch the dancing tvb drama.. lolz

addiction?

watch 1 ep of season 5 of satc. Anchors away the title. Did not actually get to finish the ep due to the fact of someone snatching the tv from me. Anyway had to give up my satc for garo.. damn my dear! Snatching the teeebee from me! Not that of a show so far…. Sob sob!! I want my teeeeeeeeeebeeeeeeeee back!

Had the whole singnet broadband down at his place, hence had to give up crunchy roll.

Anyway with him hogging the teeeeeeeebeeeeeeeee and me not being able to hear my lappy..( no earphones ) I had to just give it up. Bye bye!

Was reading through jo’s blog and found myself being glad to not to be in her situation. Having the trouble to go through apartments.. worrying about MILs, worrying about cleaning up the apartment after a havey day at home.. I am just plain glad that I do not have to go through this. I mean the only few things that I worry is for the health of DT, having enough time for shopping, catching up and bitching around with my pals. Nothing to the extend that jo had to worry for. Lucky me..

Oh ya, I had officially conclude that I am a spoilt brat. All thanks to my dear who pampers me and spoilts me a lot. Any tiny bit of nagging / whimpering / bitching by me will in immediate effect, turn him into a pillar to rely on and big teddy bear that cushion my firey temper. You know that I appreciate every bit of dote by you.

I used to think that being pessimistic is like a lotion, that we apply daily with a routine and there is no hope for positivity, till I met u.They say hope is like a drug, which we had to learn to get off of or a drug that is used to keep us alive, but I am glad, that I shall need the drug no more as when you came to my life. The addiction of hope subsides and in replacement is a cure for this addiction with a faith for a neverending un-winding road.

yawn~!~!

We both tried to sleep early last night. plan to sleep at 11pm.. in the end, DT spend the night grrr-ing and trying to irritate us by jumping on us and creating a din! grrr! got piss off with him.. but guess he knew that he irritate us so he try to win some points by kissing us ALOT. anyway, dear and myself took turn to take care of that spoilt brat of ours.. gosh! we need our sleep!!!

the on and off of sleeping in the night turn me into a light sleeper. damn it! my dark circles seems to be turning real bad.

anyway, plan to put on some nice eyes mask tonite.

out after work

work is packed today. losta back lot report to run and many not finalised. my boss seems to be staying more n more away from office. anyway its a good thing. the heavy down pour today made me late for work. lucky for me, he was not in till 11am.

went off to funan to catch my dear after work. the real reason was to meet up with my cousin to get back my speedy. i lent it to her for the last 1 mth and she unwillingly return to me. bitch! if i had known that she is this kind of person i would have never lend it to her. she ruin my lock too! anyway, got her to compensate for me and i will surely get a new lock for it. supposed to meet my dear after collecting back my bag but he was not ready. the vain me went to the ladies and transfer my barangs from my gucci document tote to my speedy. haha... went to times and managed to catch 3 interesting titles. had not been reading for the longest time and i am sure to read my fill. 2 carriers in 1 hand, 1 lv speedy.. damn i look like a shopping queen. caught my dear and his sales guy and that the guy's impression of me! darn! cant be that bad right!

came home after taking away subway.. yummy! just love love my subway! gorging it... haiz.. mon ending soon.. tue.. here i crawl...

back to basic

just change my blog skin to something simple.. lolz.

well.. back to basic they say

panic attacks

had been having the pain of having to go thru gastric pain for the last few wks.. on and off the pain came. really hurts alot.. to the point of myself having to curl up like a baby.

grrr pain!

Back to satc

Way long before the I know the exsitence of HK dramas dvd, I faithfully had been watching any HBO series that I can lay my hands on.
Watching carrie bradshaw with her heels, dresses and relationship problems are things where peeps can relate to and the wonder of relating to them!
I shall sit down and run through them .. I promise.. lol
The season 5 and 6 of satc brought me back the long lost memories after season 4. fen and myself use to be such satc fans!! That brings me to my dear fen.. I remember knowing her while doing part time at a local bank answering phone calls… we had to travel in mrt all the way back to our home which is like so near so each other! I forgot who contacted who 1st and I forgot who made the effort to call each other. In the end, this love is still going strong. She had been my bestest fren.. being with me through my ups and downs and my sucky r/s. she waitness my fall, failures and happiness! We know frens belonging to each other and we call them our own.. we know each other’s family.. fen is always by my side… in the west… we stay so near to each other…. Now having our respective partners.. we are still so near to each other in the east! Fen!! Move to the east leh! Lolz.. anyway.. the thought of watching satc jus remind me of her…
Fen.. love u!!

out with yix.. kb... vern... woohoo!

Had a great outing with kb / vern and yix… had not meet up with the gals for a long long time.. lolz.. yup! Yix is classified as GAL. met up with him first at the mrt station and we chatted all the way to catch vern. Who for once, is early!!! Lolz! As usual, our dear cute kb is LATE… but nonetheless, we had such fun horsing around with vern. Pick out our ciggies for the usual smoke break and damn yix, if u wanna have a puff.. just puff… acting so innocent with the “no smoking” sign over your head is such a unforgivable behavior!! Baby vern hates the ciggies but yet being the sweet gal that she always is, she choose to endureeeeeeee us.
Excitedly, the arrival of kb made us quicken our pace to far east, to show off vern’s rumour and yes.. my pal of years and years and counting.
Teasing vern along the way and seriously.. she blush.. ** so cute **! When was the last time I blush this way! Haha! Not for you to know.
Omg! Meng meng had a hair cut!!! Since army days, I had not known him to cut his hair, not that bad.. made him seems abit badder.. wonder why.. I prefer his puppy cutsey look. As usual, cuddley cuddley with meng while talking and he do not allow me to dye my hair! Aiming for the lastest red hair do with my short bob look.. meng says that since I dye my hair black on my own.. I had to wait for the re-growth! Eeeks!!! Wonder how long!
Anyway, the catching up with him was short since he got work to do and vern flew off in shyness.
Down came the rain! Pouring and cold, damn! Why are we stuck at fareast!! Ok.. all thanks to me for wanting to gossip about meng meng! Lolz. Lucky for us, kb knows the bus to take to taka … and anyway.. we still had to get drench.. wahahah
Upon reaching wisma, the crazy shopaholics gals came to live! We browse many of the shops.. bitching about the prices and the sizes!!! Yix was STARVING and had to go back home before we even begin our crazy clothes hunt! Poor boy! Lol.. anyway, he keep thinking that I am younger than him! Snort!
Settled in pepper lunch for our dinner and I love the meat!! Roars!!! Bitch and catch up with each other. Unlike the last time where vern and myself will crawl home together, this time around, I have my guy to fetch me.
The bitching ended at about 10 with the gals meeting allan .. I was too lazy to go anyway.. and me going up to the taka taxi stand to catch my guy. Surprise surprise!!! He got my cute cute DT in the car!! So sweet!!! Omg.. gushing already! DT try to squeese him body throught the car and got stuck! Super excited boy he is! Omg omg omg! I am just sooooo gushy!! Daddy and DT came n fetch mummy! Lol.. sweetest thing! So proud of Philip for having to bring DT along the ride and to make that extra effort to bring him. *Gushing once more* just this extra effort made me love him more!!!!!
With DT in my arms.. we ride home.. naughty DT had the cheek to fall asleep in my arms like a baby… so sweet… so cute… so lovely…

Anyway.. dear dear.. u very sweet leh! Lolz.. okok. Enough of my gushing…. But thanks for this effort! Love u as long as we are together…

break from work

ok... longgggggggggggg break from work.. not in the right mood to work today, guess its due to the fact that most peeps in the office were either on MC or leave or jus disappear ..
had been a crappy week for me due to the weather, i was so down with the weather that 1 min i was happy and jumping and the nxt min, i crumbled as i was suffering from fever.. ya ! the main word is suffering! ! i had no damn idea why i am falling sick so often and so serious! darn! it feels shitty to get fever... not just having no mood to eat... i cant even channel enough energy to play with dt..
dt had a great trim at royal pets by mark.. hahah can see dt's pretty face and pretty eyes now! gush gush... i m gushing about my cute dt again! ok.. i m just bored and i dun feel like doing work..
cant tell how much i miss mommy! there were days where mum would cook for me,iron for me, wash my clothes for me and EVERYthing for me.. now its more like if i dun do it.. the room seems like a after war of the the hurricane... damn! i wonder where the dust come from! anyway, out of sight out of mind... too shag out to clean up properly....

anyway, wkend is just round the corner!!! wonder y was i so excited... hahahaha maybe it jus mean no work! wahaha..
planning to sentosa ... miss the sea.. sun.. n funny swimming dt... muacks!

wahaha mushy me..

Officially sick!! Down with cough, flu and fever.. grrrr… slept the whole day till now and decide to just wake up abit and to blog about me me me.. been a long long time time since I last blog.. lolz

Nothing spectacular happen in my life anyway.. the same old boring me….

Stayed home during the wkend at my parents place and I came to realise about how I really need this man in my life. A weekend without him don’t seems like a great deal but a weekend without him sleeping by my side seems werid. We don’t seems to have the most fantastic and happening life but just plainly with this guy seems to make me happy. Werid that we kinda like skip the dating part and went to the “marriage” stage pretty fast. If its in the last era, I would have scream, shout and yell about how I hate to be bound! Guess it’s the age that is catching up on me, would have prefer the stable life of just being BORING than to have a life that is so happening that is filled with quarrels and fights. How many places can you hang out ? how many clubs can you go to? I rather swap these for this stable life that I had managed to crawl myself into.

Ok.. more mushy things ahead :

Thanks for loving me, thanks for being with me and thanks for giving in to me for every unreasonable behaviors that I had you put up with. Thanks for loving DT the way I love him and thanks for being with me.

Lets hope this wont end ya?

I just wanna write.

Not sure for the reason why but it seems long time since I last ratter on my personel space. Been in the working class for the last few days.

All seems fine.. I mean, the peeps are fun, great and things are done on time. No regret for me at this work place. Less the satisfaction but more of the time and fun. Less stress at least for now. At least now…

In need of breathing space.. do i? do I not? Was it a sudden urge of the space I call my own of just that I was too used to being alone without the help / assist of another person. With a burge of another person into my life, the past life that I had been holding to seems to suffer or lets just say seems to let go and a change so sudden that occur to my life made me fall off abit off balance. Just like an egg being held on to for a long long time.. it either slip off the table top and smash itself of it wobble. Seems like being in a wobbling stage now.. held on too long? Not really? Just the sudden interference of another person into my life, all went well in the beginning but now I just felt the difference of living with someone else. Unlike a caged bird, I felt right at home, ok not my home, but living under someone else’s roof is really werid.. like a long term holiday? Hmmm more like a long term refudge. Different habits I guess.. at least I believe I am more adaptable.. haha!

Wonder how long can this go on? Its not my home to begin with anyway and it may not be my home to end with…. Is this job an excuse to bind myself here? Or the other way round?

Used to be abit of a loner, now, it seems like its loner no more and welcome family life.. haha good? Blissful? Worrying? Werid? Arrrghhh am I such of a trouble finder as to defy the life where most perceive as blessed? What worry me?

Maybe just the fear of losing the personal space that I had built up so carefully so long ..

缺氧

缺氧

In a far far away side of singapore today.

Officially started work today. The horror of working in the east in way beyond my priceless dream and I swear to whichever god there is up there I will never have ever thought that I will arrive in this side of the sunny island to work!

The place was simple, family like simple work place with work that matches the people there. Not an offence though, just that unlike the previous jobs which I had to slog and to rush out my accounts, this is ENTIRELY different. The way the peeps work, the way they relax and it seems so stressless today just like strolling through the pacing clouds. The only major stress is me without any dosage of coffee! Haha caffine addict I am! Coffee and ciggies! Grrrrr what lousy habits I have!

Wonder if it’s the problem with 1^st days… raging headache that came pounding on me. With the pop of the miricle pill that I had to be on it constantly, the the pounding pain on my head remains like the ghost, haunting me and pushing me to the edge! It must be the caffine! Of the lack of it anyway!

With the rush of blood up my head, the reads that I had planned on reading Macbeth made the words hard to swallow.. gosh! What come to me!

Ok .. bed time ..

Ps. zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

abandon abandon!

had not been logging in into spc for along long time.. hit the button and was log in.. wow.. lotsa posts.. made new frens too..
click on the adoption page http://www.petschannel.com/adoption/?c=1 and guess wat.. i saw at least 3 STs up for adoption!!!! all so young n cute.. if i got my own apartment.. i m sure to adopt another one as fren fren for dt..
they are all so young so y do ppl wanna jus dump them!!! come on idiots! if u dont plan to keep a dog for the nxt 15 yrs... to move ur dogs with u when u move apartments.. dun get one!! jus dont get a dog jus becos its fucking cute getti!!!! it piss me off bad everytime i see dogs out for adoption..! sad to say.. i cant adopt them.. best part is that these dogs are like small small breeds like st!! omg!! no no ... omfg! cant these ppl think!!! i love dt alot and i can never dream of a day without him! even when going holidays.. i m thinking of time!! make it a point to bring him gai gai once a wk...!!! come on!! arrrghhhh! pets are for life ok!!! to you.. they are jus cutesy animals.. to them.. you are their everything.. u can buzz for ur frens but their onli social circle is u!! getit!!! damn ass!!! who ever let me know they are dumping a dog will get it from me! grrrrr

arrrrghhh

i m damn stressful about this!!!!! the invisible stress tat my mum gives me is killing me!!! aaarrrrggghhh!

Sat..turn...day.. lolz

Day xxx of living with him…. Not that bad I guess.. when you have got someone to cuddle with you when you sleep.. to wake up with you.. to love DT like the way you do.. I so love waking up with him now.. haha.. this is bad… reliance level increases and independent level decreases. how bad can things be?

Ok.. the worst part of it is without a job. Still searching and finding for the right position. Given the blooming opportunities of the job market, don’t think its that hard to get a job right? Started looking out for accounting position since Thursday. Planned a few interviews and there are losta calls from agencies. Hope and pray hard to start working soon. Its just sucked big time when you are stuck at home searching when your man is out working.. grrrr

Anyway, went to enrica’s house for dinner.. yummy yummy!!!! Love the pasta made by her!! Omg.. haven travel to west for such long time that it seems so werid to be back there. Haha.. but the food rocks!!!! Omg omg.. love the pasta.. love the tart.. oh ya.. the tart is like nicer than those at dogholics..best of all.. got my tiramisu!!! Yummy x 100!!!! I had sooooo much servings!!! Lucky jeff is suffering from his usual allegies to me! Haha no one to snatch my food!!! Lolz.. anyway.. fat level aside.. love the tiramisu!!!

Jo managed to shed some kilos off from her lastest strategy!.. 3kg in 2 wks!! Temptation!!! Imagine myseld to shed of like 6 kgs in 1 mth!!! I can reach my target weight!!! Woohoo!!!! Tempted tempted!!!! But he is sure to say no to my temptation anyway… zzzzzzzzzzz wahahaha

Ok.. back to watching my DVD…

PS. I love Sat!

rotting away!!!

haha had been rotting away in the "interviewing" mode for the last couple of days... nothing special just the normal of waking up the usual time and rather than going to work... i went interviews... been for 2 accounting positions so far... guess after soooo much comtemplating.. i rather go back to my usual like of work... some thing that i am farmilar with anyway...

ok.. nw crawling back to job finding... lolz

young minds!

With due respect to the world filled up with kids and underage minds to be nurtured. I heard the most amazing conversation I had ever thought that would exist! While in MRT, I saw this girl, dressed in primary school uniform.. given that the school is so near my home, the young girl yak out her HP and the conversation goes :

Girl : I cant believe that he had broken up with me!!! Sobs…

Girl : He is the 25^th bf that I had! How can he just break off with me lidat!!!

Girl : Yes! I had sex with him!!!

OMG! Ya OMG! For the talks and preparatiton for the young of our society, the foundation of the youth and the nurturing of the minds, this the wat was appearing from a 12 year old gal!!! yes! Exact conversation that had been exchanged!!!

Qtr life crisis

had a couple of calls for various sales and marketing postions.. not that of a bad offer.. i mean.. entertainment.. lunches and dinners.. how bad can things be? qtr life crisis i am in now.. do i continue and further my current career which i had work so hard for or do i jus give up and let go? left with core acca papers to go... to continue or not to continue? i myself.. i dont know what to do. with the recent surge in the job market, opportunities are not that bad.. easier than years back.. esp in my line.. am i cut for accounting? i really dont know.. dad made me study it.... saying how it can further my career.. give me a better life.. do i wan it? is this a time where reality strike? do i do what i wanna try or do i continue the route that i had been walking all along?

someone had been telling me about how much i dont love u... sometime i really wonder, how can someone who do not know me, do not know u, do not noe us, judge me by the way she feel? in what ways do i show that i dont love u? because we chat like pals? because u gave me advices when i need them or because i feel like u are now so part of my life? who is to judge whether i love you or not? who is to judge how much i love you?

ps.. grrrrrr

move or not to move?

At home today… we had the discussion of me moving in with him again. As sweet as he always do, we had a decent discussion about it. Not the usual fight that I would have expected if its other man. Great man to me so far.. nothing much that I would have asked from this man. Move in or not? Ever wonder why I had this doubt? Not knowing how long this love would last (which I hope to last for years to come and for a long long time), I am pretty scared about having to lose it one day. What if one day all this end? Do I have to move everything back? I hope this day will not come.. but there is always this fear in me that got me afraid that one day if this were to happen.. will I still have the face to move everything back home? As much as I am comfortable so far to live with him.. wonder if its right to do so? Guess it’s the distance between us, ok.. singapore is NOT that big anyway.. but having someone to go home to.. to live with.. to cuddle with.. how not good is that? Guess it where all lovely dovely couples wish for. Will it last? Why do I fear that much that it will not? Silly me? Am I such? Am I thinking too much or are all these just doubts and fears that the people around me induce?

Anyway.. since I do not wish to live my life with him in a paper bag…. I told him that until the day we clean up his messy room.. than I will move in.. haha.. not a move to delay.. guess if I wanna move in.. I want to at least have a cupboard of my own! Haha!

PS. I love u .. .. :)

too good to be true?

so far so good.. haven have got a r/s that seems so comfortable.... is it the age? is it because of the love? or is it because he is far more matured that I am? or is it the past experience that made me a wiser person? Till date, there are things that we do not agree with, however, he did not ever so far raise his voice at me and surprisingly, we managed to have proper discussion and to have the chance to being able to talk to each other in a much proper way. no fights, no disagreements.. ok there is.. but no mean words exchange so far.. wonder if the long wait to love had gain me such? they say, once u got hurt too many times.. you just stop believing in love.. have doubts and not to trust love again? once met the right person.. you just doubt if he is the right one.
Given a chance, will you hurt me?
Last time round.. when i was with SS, we did not have any fights initially too.. in the end, man n ego.. man and dog.. man and love..man and other women... all rolled up to rounds and rounds of fights.. will this end up this way too?? I wanted so much to believe in this love.. and i believe in it.. but bring the excess baggage with me is soooo tiring....
Seriously.. i will believe in him.. to believe is love.. jus like new...

PS. i love u