Not sure for the reason why but it seems long time since I last ratter on my personel space. Been in the working class for the last few days.
All seems fine.. I mean, the peeps are fun, great and things are done on time. No regret for me at this work place. Less the satisfaction but more of the time and fun. Less stress at least for now. At least now…
In need of breathing space.. do i? do I not? Was it a sudden urge of the space I call my own of just that I was too used to being alone without the help / assist of another person. With a burge of another person into my life, the past life that I had been holding to seems to suffer or lets just say seems to let go and a change so sudden that occur to my life made me fall off abit off balance. Just like an egg being held on to for a long long time.. it either slip off the table top and smash itself of it wobble. Seems like being in a wobbling stage now.. held on too long? Not really? Just the sudden interference of another person into my life, all went well in the beginning but now I just felt the difference of living with someone else. Unlike a caged bird, I felt right at home, ok not my home, but living under someone else’s roof is really werid.. like a long term holiday? Hmmm more like a long term refudge. Different habits I guess.. at least I believe I am more adaptable.. haha!
Wonder how long can this go on? Its not my home to begin with anyway and it may not be my home to end with…. Is this job an excuse to bind myself here? Or the other way round?
Used to be abit of a loner, now, it seems like its loner no more and welcome family life.. haha good? Blissful? Worrying? Werid? Arrrghhh am I such of a trouble finder as to defy the life where most perceive as blessed? What worry me?
Maybe just the fear of losing the personal space that I had built up so carefully so long ..