sad

Wonder if its me being emo or just that the whole “being married” is taking a toll on me. Where it used to be u being sweet n accommodating and we can communicate on all levels.
After married, things slowly changed. It might due to me having a bigger and higher expectation or maybe your true self is being revealed.

No longer is u accommodative.
U blamed me time and again. Saying I was selfish. I did not asked u for a single car ride! U made various excuses not to fetch me. Only driving me to places that benefit you and only you.

When u had chicken pox on the 3rd day, you insisted that you want to watch a movie cause you want to watch, hence you drive me to the cinema.

6 days after the chicken pox, you insist that you are too sick and you don’t wish to drive me to the driving range (my guess is that it’s because you can’t play, hence you made excuses not to drive me).

You don’t drive me home from school and I know that its because it does not benefit you.

You will only drive me if you can take part in the activity. Like if you can go to the range, you would in the 1st time and place, volunteer to fetch me back.

Like you know that my mum would cook your favourite food hence you send me back weekly. When you know that you are down with chicken pox and you know that you can eat my mum’s cooking, you asked me to go back myself with the boys. See the different?

Just moments ago, I msn you and asked you if the parkway gold storage is the biggest in the east as I need to get food for the boys. You said you will send me there provided no one can see you. No stairs, no strangers and out of view. The truth is, how can you get down to your car without stairs? Without anyone seeing? Even at the carpark, people can see you, even on the road, people can see you. So I assume that you are just trying to fake sending me. Because this is non beneficial to you. I totally understand now.

Yet, you claim I was selfish and unreasonable. I do not want your car rides at all and all you can think of is me being unreasonable? Am I?